Every day, I constantly count the ways in which I am a bad mom.
I'm short-tempered when I wish I could be more patient. I have to work and have my kids in childcare, so they're largely being brought up by someone that isn't me. I don't have time to feed them foods that are as healthy as I'd like. I wish I was more fun, playing with them on the floor and getting dirty outside instead of doing chores all the time... I'm sure you get the idea.
So, on a Wednesday evening when I have had an utterly crappy day... Clara's been teething and throwing temper tantrums, we've both spent a good portion of the day in tears, we've arrived late to daycare and work... and I surrender and take us out to a buffet restaurant for dinner... I do NOT want to get ANY kind of feedback from the so-called "server." Really. I'm not joking.
At the Glory Buffet (or whatever the hell that nasty restaurant in the mall is called), I was serving Clara bits of food on the table. Because people, if I give her a plate, she tosses it on the ground. And I cry. Which no one wants to see. So ANY-WAY, I was dishing her small pre-cut bits of food on the table in front of her high chair, and our 14-year-old server came by to be helpful:
14-year-old Server: "Do you want a plate for her?"
Me: "No thanks."
Server: "I'm happy to get a plate."
Me: "We're good, thanks anyway."
Server: "Well, you do know that she's eating off the table."
Me: "Uh. Yeah. If I give her a plate, she throws it."
Server: "Well... we just clean all our tables with the same rag. It's not very clean."
Seriously? I paid for this?
3 comments:
DO NOT go back! I'll start sending casseroles STAT! And Clara can eat off the friggin' floor if that's what you decide- you're her mother!! Next time you start getting caught up in all the horrible things you do- redirect yourself. Think of all the wonderful things: Clara and Joy have a loving extended family because you work hard to keep it that way, they get to see a mom who can do almost everything herself (for years I thought guys were only good for brute strength, barbecuing and burning breakfast but that women could even shingle a damn house by themselves )and they both get to see that they can be anyone they want to be. You're one of the coolest moms around (next to mine, of course) Happy Halloween!
Oh girl. I SO know how ya feel...
For some reason, your RSS feed stopped working. I thought you'd gone MIA!! I fixed it and I'm glad you're still around.
Big hugs. I agree. I feel like a bad mom most of the time.
Not bad Mama, bad buffet. Yowch.
Don't beat yourself up. Your giving those babies everything they need, which is much less than you think.
Love them? Feed them? Bathe them every now and then? Kiss them? Hug them? Tell them you love them?
Aha, thought you were a good mama.
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